I have always been told that your first year of teaching was one of the hardest. To be honest, I never really believed people when they said that. I would always think, "That won't be me. I know what I am doing and am confident in myself." Wow, was I ever wrong. This has truly been one of the most difficult years of my life. Between being in another country, having a difficult class, and being in my first year of teaching, I often found myself overwhelmed by it all.
As I am looking at the last 3 days of the school year, the song lyrics, "Never once did we ever walk alone." This song is truly a reflection of what this year has been like. Despite all the difficulties that have come my way, never once was I alone. Even in my stubbornness when I wanted to do it by myself, He was there to catch me when I (inevitably) fell. No matter how many times I have messed up, He has been there for me.
Looking at this upcoming year, I remind myself of what God has been teaching me - you are not alone. I'm in the same position as last year - looking for a new job. I know the Lord has my future in His hands, but I have such a hard time letting go. I want to do it all. I want to know what I am doing now, and I want it to be according to MY plan, not HIS. I don't like waiting. I don't like unknowns. I don't like giving up my control. However, I gave my life to Him, I trust Him, and know He has a much better handle on all of this than I do.
I would appreciate your prayers through this time of transition in my life. There are so many pieces that need to come together which require me giving up my control. I would also appreciate prayers for safe travel (I come back on June 16) and prayers for my Mom who goes home on June 9.
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